i need advice. i don't have money for a therapist..
so i am asking all of you mom's out there becuase i feel you will all give me better advice anyways.
for the last 5 years i have slowly only thought of my self. we own or own business. and have a 5 year old. i do as little as i have to . and then i purposely get busy with something so i don't have to deal with them.
When i go do things for my self. things other parents would be taking their kids with them. i get my parents to watch my son.. so i get it the easy way,
when we get home at night ( i need to start learning how ot cook) well lately i have been trying. but we usually get home. i turn my computer on and i get on facebook for hours. and then yell at everyone becuase they aren't doing what needs to be done.
I have completely ignored my husbands needs for years. and he feels that all the reason i am here. is so he can take care of me. and so i can have it easy.( i miss the way it used to be)
I have no idea how to change. or how to start to change. one thing i am going to start to do. is when i have things to do , i am not pawning him off with family. i am going to be the mother that i need to be.
How do i stop doing things for my self or even think of my self. i need to start doing things with my family instead of what i want to do.
how do i do these things?
and if you feel like just yelling at me. well maybe you should. maybe it will help me just wake up!!
Thank you Momma's for your listening!