To tell the story of how i lost my beautiful baby , i have to first tell you all , that i was blessed 7 mths ago with the birth of my son Noah. Now as you can imagine to my surprise 8 weeks ago i found out i was expecting again. My fiance and i were ecstatic. As crazy as it may seem to rush into having another baby so soon. We felt blessed .I am a 36 yr old healthy woman never smoked and have not had a drink in almost 2 yrs. So about 10 days ago i noticed a brownish reddish spot on my underwear naturally i thought light spotting is normal and it reamined just that light spotting for a few days . On the 28th i had my first prenatal appt , it took long because i didnt have insurance up until the beginning of november. In any case because of my age and the fact i was spotting and experiencing light back aches my doctor sent me for a sonogram the very next day . I grew nervous and so did my fiance, we sat in the waiting area when i started feeling cramping and the need to urinate asap. I rushed to the restroom where i saw my underwear was covered in bllod , i was blleding profusely and the cramping was excruciating. My boyfriend was knocking on the door when as i sat on the toilet i felt a splash and i looked in the toilet and i screamed hysterically. The nurse rushed me into a room and cleaned me up and proceeded to perform the sonogram , where she showed us my sack was now empty and in the process of collapsing. My baby was gone. I was and still in shock , what did i do wrong . Everyone tells me that it was not my fault and there was a reason why it happened. To be honest i dont want to hear any of it . I am hurting , my fiance is hurting . We are greiving and it hurts so much . how can i move on without fearing this can happen again. We want to have another baby , obviously we are going to wait a while but . I am so scared. I am happy with my 2 children and i love my family . How do i cope with this , how do we cope.