I cannot move on. Update 2-16

[TraceyMR]

My hCG levels are still rising. They haven't dropped at all, and are slightly higher than when the mtx was given. I want to be done with this. MTX is the worst substance I have ever had the misfortune of having put in my body.
I am waiting on a call from the same dr's office that I never want to see again because my former ob won't take my case.

I am so upset about this. I'm scared they'll want to dose me again.

Minor update as of 5pm central time.:

They want me at their office at 8am for a blood draw. Then we go from there. I told them I will not do another mtx dose nor will I see the doctor who I saw previously ever again.
I can't stop crying right now. I just want this to be done. I want to move on and this is not working.

I had the blood drawn then they worked me in for an ultrasound. The blood test had not even come back before they talked to me. I have a yolk sac but no baby inside a tiny spot either on the side of or right inside of my right ovary or tube. It is rare even in cases of ectopic pregnancy it seems.
I have surgery scheduled for tomorrow morning at 9am.
I refused to have it done today because the doctor who I had a bad experience with is on call today. I refused a second dose of MTX. I want to move on already and for me waiting yet another week after a dose of mtx waiting on my numbers to come back, praying for them to drop, and then still not having a guarantee of the shot working, makes the dose not worth it.

[busyizzybsmom]

I'm so sorry. :( Did they ever confirm an ectopic? If not, it seems like you could just wait for it to happen naturally... it took a month after my baby died for my body to catch on and finally miscarry, but it went pretty "smoothly" as far as miscarriages go.

[TraceyMR]

They've not confirmed ecctopic. I began bleeding and passing tissue before the mtx and just stopped bleeding yesterday. My levels are plateaued in the low 400s and high 300s since the 6th.

Quoting busyizzybsmom:

I'm so sorry. :( Did they ever confirm an ectopic? If not, it seems like you could just wait for it to happen naturally... it took a month after my baby died for my body to catch on and finally miscarry, but it went pretty "smoothly" as far as miscarriages go.

[busyizzybsmom]

Huh. Could you ask for another ultrasound before they try to push another methotrexate shot?

Quoting TraceyMR:

They've not confirmed ecctopic. I began bleeding and passing tissue before the mtx and just stopped bleeding yesterday. My levels are plateaued in the low 400s and high 300s since the 6th.

[mommyofnoah208]

So sorry :(

[TraceyMR]

I will demand one, and also be firm that they do anything diagnostically they need to do to determine if I really need another dose of mtx before even coming close to agreeing to it.

Quoting busyizzybsmom:

Huh. Could you ask for another ultrasound before they try to push another methotrexate shot?

Quoting TraceyMR:

They've not confirmed ecctopic. I began bleeding and passing tissue before the mtx and just stopped bleeding yesterday. My levels are plateaued in the low 400s and high 300s since the 6th.

[newmom2be08]

I'm sorry.  :(  I hope you will get some answers soon.  Hugs!

[TraceyMR]

bump

[mommyofnoah208]

I'm sorry. Hoping this is over soon so you can staet the healing process. Praying for you

[grumpyboston]

So sorry u are going thur this have to try to go to hospital u will get answers tight then m there n they will do everything.if it is a tubal they will do surgery right them .good luck hugs n god bless

[TraceyMR]

Thanks y'all. I am taking tonight to pack in case I am hospitalized at all tomorrow. I will get a good night's rest (if I can) and ge tto the doctor in the AM and go from there. The hospital and doctor are more than an hour from home, so I will not go tonight.