for some resion has sent me a sorry for your loss card
I really dont know why but it made me so angary(sorry my spelling)
I slung it across the room without reading the silly slop inside
my 23month old picked it up and handed it back to me
I went to the kitchen and tore it up (again with the spelling) and put it into the bin
I never do that mushy crap at the best of times but why did it make me so cross I have now been in floods on the kitchen floor
If my friend know how bad it had made me feel she would of been gutted She would of been so upset to hurt me
I know she did it out of love and wanting to show she cares
O I hate not knowing how to feel
"I hate not knowing how to feel" Why do we all feel like there is a CORRECT way to handle a miscarriage? I say the same thing to my boyfriend and he finally told me how stupid it sounds (sorry he's not sensitive). But he is right... I say unless someone makes a handbook on "Proper way to Grieve Angel Babies" then you handled a sympathy card just fine. I am a big fan of throwing things, I think you handled it perfectly. People who have never been through this mean to be supportive, but sometimes they just don't know what to say... so they f it all up. Hang in there Momma! Feel what you need to feel and throw shit when you want to!
HOWEVER remember that TV commercial about throwing things in front of your daughter, she grows up to date losers, and then you end up with a grandson with a dog collar (I think it is a drop cable and sign up for DishNetwork commercial)... ok did anyone laugh, or did my joke go over everyones head this early in the morning?
i was actaully upset that only one person sent us a card. my baby was 22 weeks along.
We were getting at least 5 cards a day from people and we opened them, only because people were sending money, but I put them in a pile and they are still sitting there to this day. I know people mean well but sometimes it just hurts to much.
But I am still angry over all the people who acted like it was such a big deal to them and like they had just lost their son and I know that they got to go home and totally forget about him and not grieve for him and then my sister asked to see pictures of him and I sent one to her and she told me that she started crying when she saw it because she doesn't think about him every day and to remember was really hard. that actually made me feel better, because at least shes honest enough to tell me that, instead of people like my Mom who acted rediculus and was more concerened about school then going to her grandsons funeral.....
Sorry to ramble on, but I am realizing that it is perfectly normal get angry over things suddenly, its just part of dealing with the pain.
How are you today? May 28
- madhouseof5
on Feb. 16, 2012 at 7:03 AM