I want things to be different
I am turning 21 on Wednesday. This means I can go out and grab a drink, right? I can't help feeling like this is not the way things are supposed to be right now. I am supposed to be 4 months pregnant right now, and I am not supposed to be drinking alcohol. When I had my mc, a lot of people tried to cheer me up by saying, "At least you can go out drinking on your birthday now!" As if I would rather be drinking than carrying my child. Things are supposed to be so, so different right now. I want to enjoy my birthday, because I have had a hard time enjoying it for the past few years (for a variety of reasons), and this is the last birthday that is actually supposed to be exciting.