Starting to Hate people!
I lost my babies 3 months ago and if I hear you should be over it again I think I might smack someone!
People don't think before they speak either I have to act like nothing happened or hear ignorance spew out of their mouths. Even my mother is awful she says you shoud be happy with the kids you have..
The closer I get to my dues date the more I think about. I am all alone in my pain even my hisband is over it, but my babies died I felt them moving I don't want to forget or get over it. It is bad enough eceryoe I fucking know is pregnant all happy and complaining how big they are getting. I stay positive but god I am so jealous and bitter. I want to be buying baby stuff I want to be all big a pregnant I want my babies..
Yet I sit alone " I don't sleep anymore" with no one to talk to. I am alone in this crappy world
Also I get so mad all these horriable crack head crazy women pregnant on tv. I get so mad why do they get to have children when they don't want or love them, and me who wanted my babies so bad had to lose them..
I sound so bitter sorry