Two steps forward....One step backwards
Help me ladies. I feel so very broken.
My friend who was/is only a few weeks behind me in my angel's pregnancy was in a car accident last night. Someone ran a red light, hit her truck on the driver's side by the front tire, spun out and hit her again on the back tire driver's side. Her 3yo son and husband was in the car, everyone is okay, including those in the other car. She was driving, she was more worried about her son (who was on the passenger's side and is fine with no boo-boos) and slightly in shock that she didn't go to the hospital. I decided to spend the night at her place so if she did change her mind I could take her to the hospital. When I got to her place she was having cramps and back pain. I took her to the hospital and turns out she was having contractions. She and the baby are both doing fine and healthy. She is only 27weeks. She is home and they gave her medicine to stop the contractions. I am more than happy for her.
Why I feel broken is I stayed with her in a labor/delivery room all night long, and left without my son once again. I lost my son 13 weeks ago during delivery. I didn't think it would hit me this hard, but I miss my son and I wish I was still pregnant. I can't stop crying and I would love some positive, uplifting words right now.