Two steps forward....One step backwards

[turtlebear]

Help me ladies. I feel so very broken. 

My friend who was/is only a few weeks behind me in my angel's pregnancy was in a car accident last night. Someone ran a red light, hit her truck on the driver's side by the front tire, spun out and hit her again on the back tire driver's side. Her 3yo son and husband was in the car, everyone is okay, including those in the other car. She was driving, she was more worried about her son (who was on the passenger's side and is fine with no boo-boos) and slightly in shock that she didn't go to the hospital. I decided to spend the night at her place so if she did change her mind I could take her to the hospital. When I got to her place she was having cramps and back pain. I took her to the hospital and turns out she was having contractions. She and the baby are both doing fine and healthy. She is only 27weeks. She is home and they gave her medicine to stop the contractions. I am more than happy for her.

Why I feel broken is I stayed with her in a labor/delivery room all night long, and left without my son once again. I lost my son 13 weeks ago during delivery. I didn't think it would hit me this hard, but I miss my son and I wish I was still pregnant. I can't stop crying and I would love some positive, uplifting words right now.

[ooCherryo0]

So sorry for your loss... You are a really good friend to stay with her there with it being so hard.

[iSMILEheCRIES]

 I am sorry for your loss, and I am very proud of you for being such a wonderful friend.

[lunarmamma]

You are an amazing, caring and loving friend! I know she is very grateful that you were there for her. I know how painful that must have been for you (I recently went through something similar) and how strong you were. God bless you honey, and I am so sorry for your loss.

[cali_angel_girl]

((hugs)) I am so sorry hun but she is lucky to have a friend like you because it's such an amazing thing you did for her.

[mommyofnoah208]

So sorry. Glad they are ok. You are a very good friend

[rain_child87]

You are very brave. I am so sorry for your loss :(  I can't even imagine how hard this must be for you, all my miscarriages were early. I'm sure that given time your heart will  heal (we women are made of strong stuff!)       I've never been one to pray, but I will keep you in my thoughts...you are an amazing, wonderful, caring woman and YOU WILL get better. Eventually. Love yourself and take as much time as you need.

[turtlebear]

She was there for me the day my son was born, I could tell that she was worried she might have been in the same type of situation, we talked a little about it and she was very grateful that I of all people were there for her. And I was more than willing to stay, I didn't show her how I felt while there but when I got home, I just cried.