Is anyone afraid to try again?
From the day I found out our baby had passed, until the day I left the hospital 5 days later, every doctor I came in contact with kept mentioning and telling me that...one loss doesn't lead to another, this will not effect my chances of having another, that it is ok to have another, etc. I was kinda caught offgaurd by it. It was never even in my thought process.
My "missed miscarriage" involved being induced, losing too much blood just before being delivered, being rushed back for a D&E under general anesthesia, hours after surgery passing out and needing a blood transfusion...and all the while I have pneumonia caused by valley fever and another virus called CMV. It's been very traumatic.
So, as of now, I need to wait until the Valley Fever is gone, which is a minimum of 3-6 months, upto a year. The treatment for VF can cause liver damage, so I need to have many appts for med adjustment and liver tests...and I'm already 35 years old. I find the thought of potentially ever going through this again terrifying....but I'm not going to lie, I'd love another baby. I crave having a baby in my arms again, the feel, the sounds, the smells. I also feel like if we don't have another, it's ending on a sour note...but again, the fear and trauma sets in. I tried to discussing with hubby, and I know he'd love another...he just said, I'm behind whatever you decide Honey.
Does anyone else have fear or trauma holding them back?