everything changes overnight.... how am i gonna get over this?
hello gals, my name is Carrie. Im 31 years old. My husband and I have been trying for 5 years to get pregnant. We finally found out we was 61/2 weeks on April 25 2012. I was so overjoyed with thoughts of the future. I was doing everything i could from eating the right food, to exercising. I was preparing and praying for a strong healthybaby. I was 13 weeks at the time when everything turned for the worse. The date was June 13 I was working a job that i never should have been working. I was helping my mother in law at a lodge she and my father in law had just purchased. I had been on my feet for 8-9 hours a day for the past week. i feel like it was my falt for helping them. On the 13th i felt wet so i went to the restroom and there was blood. My husband had me at the hospital in mere minutes. For hours i set there worried. Finally the took me to do a transvaginal ultrasound. There i found my baby didn't have a heartbeat. At that moment everything changed my hopes, plans, dreams, and wishes for the future had vanished. I had a D&C on June 15. This is been the hardest thing I've ever been through. I keep thinking about not being able to hold her/him or see who she/he takes after. Or having there lil finger wrap around mine. Or the first smile. I miss you Jessie so much momma don't know what to do without you! God plz take care of him/her. Gals i understand i can try again but it doesn't make losing this one any easier.