Anyone else going through this Alone?
I'm having the hardest time dealing with the loss of my daughter that was June 12. I honestly thought that I would have a little support. My daughters father wasn't there with me, he even seemed down right bothered that I had even asked for support in the delivery room. It hurt, but it hurt more that he hasn't asked how Im doing, if I'm ok, nothing. He expressed that he was in a way happy, that I should be too. A couple family members called briefly 2 days after I delivered her. They acknowledge what I went through, but have also told me that life moves on, and that I can always try again I was offered nohelp with anything, to pick me up from the hospital, to help with my 7 year old son, to return baby items or set up arrangements....etc. Sometimes I read about other people and all the support and help they have received and I feel so jealous. I sit in my house and look at everything I bought for her and want it out of sight so badly, but at the same time I just cant seem to bring myself to bringing it all back. I'm drained from trying to find a cemetery that will even allow my daughters ashes to be there, I wish I had some help, even if it was a little bit. Al I want to do is sleep, and not deal with everything myself. I know it seems like I'm complaining, I just don't understand why everyone around me expects to be fine now, happy and like nothing happened. I'm devastated, heartbroken and have never felt more alone in my life. I wish someone that I can just talk to, without being felt like I just want sympathy. Thanks for listening.