first miscarriage, want conversation and support.
hello ladies, i am looking for some conversation and support. I am currently experiencing my first miscarriage and when i talk to my friends, family, co-workers and boyfriend i get the standard phrases. These being; "everything happens for a reason", "at least you weren't farther along", and last but not least "it will be OK". We found out i was pregnant mothers day weekend via home pregnancy test,we were so excited to tell our family and friends. I went to the doctor the following Monday and calculated my due date (1/6/13) i was 6 weeks. My doctor scheduled me for an ultrasound around 9 weeks everything was going great up until week 8. I started to notice that my symptoms were lessening. The fatigue was going away same with the nausea, I didn't think anything of it really, this being my first pregnancy i did not know much yet. The day of the ultra sound and the tech wasn't very personable, she didn't talk to me much except to say we are almost done or, empty your bladder again. The only bit of information i was able to get was that the dates didn't match up. What they were seeing was more consistent with 5 or 6 weeks not 9 weeks. They sent me home and said they would call me, i get home and 15 mins later i got a call to come back down so they could look again. I kept asking if everything was OK and got no answer. when they were looking again they confirmed that what they were seeing was more like 5 or 6 weeks, still no definite answer. My stomach was in knots and all i could do was cry out of fear and frustration. Week 10 comes along and my doctor finally calls me and tells me that she is worried that the pregnancy is not progressing. I went in the following day to get blood drawn to measure the hcg levels and then again a couple of days later. The result comes back and confirms that the levels are going down, I am going to have a miscarriage. I was devastated, all i could do was cry and so i did. I opted to wait it out naturally as i wasn't ready to do anything else. Nothing was happening and i finally broke down and took the medication today. the doctor says i should be done bleeding in 3 days if not i have to get a d&c. The worst thing about this whole situation is that we told so many of our friends and family and now have to tell them that there wont be a baby now.