So tomorrow I have another counseling appointment, but the first with my ex. He only recently found out about my miscarriage and when I told him I was just starting to go to counseling he said he would like to come with me. We haven't spent much one on one time together because he's married and im trying to keep the line where it needs to stay so things don't get weird, and quite honestly so I don't get hurt. I do still have feelings for him and while I appreciate him being here for me I'm very nervous that going to counseling with him is only going to increase the feelings I have for him. He really wants to go with me to work through what happened to us together with a third party. I do think it's a good idea to at least try it out and see how it goes but omg I'm so nervous! I can't shake these butterflies from my stomach and I can't shut my brain down to sleep. Kind of a pointless post just trying to let out some of this nervous energy!
on Jun. 30, 2012 at 2:33 AM