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Being only 17, made my life hard. senior year, finding out i was pregnant.. it was a lot on my plate. i was going to college to be a forensic scientist, but then wasn't sure i could do it while having a child. of course i got happy. i was finally four months pregnant, and found out i was soon to have a baby girl. Alayne Marie<3 i already loved her so much, and couldnt wait for her to join me in the world. when i was a little over 4.5 months pregnant, i lost her. it was the most horrid thing i could witness. i often have nightmares about the images. its horrible. i turned to drugs after i lost her, just to cope i guess. first it was me trying to kill myself. i cut my wrists so bad that they'd bleed forever. my mom once walked in on me trying to kill myself with my anxiety and anti depressant pills while having blood drip down my wrists. she instantly dropped to her knees. i was institutionalized for suicide. my mom held on to my pills and only gave them to me when i was suppose to take em. as soon as i turned 18 i moved out, and dropped outta school. i couldnt handle going anymore. after i miscarried and had returned to school, i walked into the girls bathroom with my name carved into the trash can saying i had an abortion. soon after, my name was in every bathroom in the school with my name written on the walls, carved in the trash cans, etc, saying various things like i had an abortion, im a baby killer, im a whore, etc. it was ridiculous. i intended to get into online homeschooling, but that never happened. i pretty much ruined my life. ive now had 5 miscarriages. ive been in the hospital for cysts in my tube. and they say my left ovary has took a crap and no longer works. ive never had periods really. my first one was when i was almost 16. ie had maybe 7.. ive been trying to concieve for a year now, and i just don't think ill ever get my own baby. its sad.. but im currently in rehab (out patient) and no longer on pills.im starting to get better, but it seems like once i do, i just drop.. thanks for reading.