As I've already posted, I lost a baby 11 days ago at 15 weeks. Today is my neice's babyshower which I organized. Since losing our baby, her grandmother took over the party. But I can't help feeling guilty about not going. She wants me to go and has expressed that to me. I'm afraid of being an emotial wreck and crying at the shower. I have moments that I'm ok and then I cry out of any little reminder of what happened. Should I just go? Am I wrong for wanting to pass? What would you do?