How to keep the faith?
One thing I have strugged with throughout this process is my faith. I feel like I've lost it and as much as I want to get it back I have no clue what to do to get it back. My beliefs just aren't lining up with what's happened and I feel like my faith ha been fundamentally shaken. I don't want to go to church, find myself with nothing to say to God, and feel like I cannot reconcile what's happened with my fundamental beliefs. If God knows everything why would he give us a baby that could not survive? How could that cruelty happen to me and so many women?