Withdrawing from Society
I'm thinking about shutting myself away for a couple months. I don't work outside the home anyway so that's not an issue. I'll go out and do the things I need to, go to the store etc. I'll take care of my family as they are always my main priority. I just mean going out and being among friends and socializing. DH says that's not good for me. But how is it good for me to constantly be in pain? Home is my safe place.
Background info: I had two miscarriages in 2011. One at 17 weeks and one at 6 weeks. We've been TTC for two years and have had trouble conceiving, besides the two we lost.
All around me friends are getting pregnant without even having to try and they are on their 3rd or 4th kid. One acts like she pity's me and another just tries to rub it in my face.
I'm so tired of hurting. I just want to be left alone now. I know there are plenty of ladies in this group who understand, but there is nobody in my personal life who understands. Even the people I know who had miscarriages went on to conceive shortly after.
I feel broken. I feel like a failure. I feel like God has forgotten me.
Thanks for listening.