Sorry I've been MIA the past few days, I'm really struggling right now. I'm in the medical field and after my loss I was trying to be very by the books. I wanted answers and I had every test I could think of as we'll as my doctor. I had focused all my attention on the medical aspect of everything and don't think I let myself grieve properly. Now I just lose it randomly. I can be at work and just start crying for no reason and its really hard to stop. Also feel like everything is my fault even though I've been told 100 times that its not. My husband and both of our parents were so excited to being having a baby and my husband wanted a little boy so bad. I feel so guilty that my body couldn't give him the little boy he dreamed of. I'm s heart broken... I miss Jackson every minute, I feel so sorry for my husband and now I got AF after trying. Sorry I know I'm just rambling. My husband and I just really want to have another baby and I'm not a patient person..... Anyone have any good tips for us for trying again this month??