Its NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!
So af showed up, almost a week late ='( Then I noticed an update from a girl in my ddg from when I was pregnant with Ryder and STUPID, STUPID me clicked on it, not only is she pregnant again, but like 10 other girls are pregnant again... And most of them are complaining about how close the babies are going ot be and everything. I don't have my baby and now I have another baby I lost on top of it and now I can't seem to get pregnant, yet all these people have their babies are planning their one year parties and talking about milestones and what foods they are eating, about walking and learning to say mama and dada... and I got nothing!! I have no baby, no baby due in 2 months... and can't get pregnant now.
I am really upset, lonely, sad and angry. I want my babies back! I want to see those two pink lines, I want to see pregnant pop up on the screen, I want to go hear my babies heart beat, feel them kick, I want to hold my baby, I want to use all the things in the nursery, I want to redecorate it.....
Its soooo not fair. I really fucking hate my life right now. How come everyone is having babies but me? I am suppose to be being thankful and counting my blessings but I can't. I am just to angry to be thankful for what I have. Because I DID have 2 babies, yet they got taken away. Yes I do have 2 daughters and I love them more then life its self, but why give me two more babies only to take them away? Why make me suffer every month with late periods, teaser symptoms for it to only be a big fat mean joke on me every month?????
Sorry for the rant it just sucks and I want it to all go away and I want my son back.