I feel like I'm trapped :(

[Treasure43]

Not having a good few days over here. I'm a little over a week from my due date and Christmas was extremely hard for me. DH and I are on our fourth cycle of TTC and I'm realizing I'm obsessing. Right after the m/c, I was constantly reliving that. Now that we're TTC, I'm constantly anxious about that. I've been seeing a counseler and it's helping but I still feel like all I think about is my reproductive system/babies/if I'll miscarry again. I feel like I'm a bit obsessed with it. I'm either sad I'm not pregnant or worrying about what would happen if I do get pregnant again. How do I take a break from it all? As hard as it is, maybe I need to stop coming on this site for a bit.

Any thoughts on how to just get away from all the ttc, miscarriage, baby thoughts? I feel like they're dominating my thoughts and I just want to feel carefree and happy again...even if it's only for a little bit.

[cali_angel_girl]

((hugs)) I wish I had some advice for you hun but once me and my dh start ttc after our loss we didn't want to really put any stress onto ourselves.  But here is a bump for you and I hope one of the other ladies can maybe give you some advice.

[blessedmommie07]

*hugs*  I'm not sure but you need to focus on you and your sanity.  If you need a take a break from here it.  Have you tried a local support group too?  I do counseling and the local support group and it has helped me a lot especially my support group.

Have you tried a hobby?  I'm not sure.  I just got to a point where I said I can't do this anymore and I won't and somehow blocked most of those thoughts or diverted my mind when I had to and it worked for me.  Good luck!

[momofcrazypants]

Oh momma, I'm so sorry. I feel like that here and there too. Like something related to my loss is always on my mind or in the back of it! I started joining other groups on here that I found interesting. Like there's a meal planning group and cooking groups...totally boring, I know, but it gets my mind off of things. Just trying to explore my interests and find joy again, even in the small things and even if it's just for a few minutes. (hugs)

[Angela4boys]

I completely relate to how you are feeling.... Like to a T. I wish I could ease my own mind, but I can't. At the same time, I feel entitled to worry, it is a real emotion. Just like we feel it's ok to experience joy and happiness, worry and anxiousness are real, and I can't suppress them. And just like my Avery is worth all my tears and grief, my unborn is worthy of all my worry... It's what us moms do!

[jeniemarie]

maybe just stop trying for a couple months? or get a hobby like crafts or volintering someplace to help keep your miind at ease. i think its a good thing that you are seeing a counslor that can help, and if you feel the need to step away from here do it wed all understand. you need to focus on getting yourself to a safe place first before anything else

[blessedbyGod141]

I know how you feel. 6 mo ago my first pregnancy was a miscarriage. Now I'm 12 Wks and 3 days I've been to the doctor practically every week for bleeding or having trouble breathing. I'm constantly worried. I'm just Praying. That's all I can do. Praying for you