New to the Group.. Someone help
On December 10th I was told during my 37 week ultrasound that my 4th son didn't have a heart beat. I was taken to the hospital and gave birth to my son December 11th around 4 am. It has been only 3 weeks since I held my baby and said goodbye. I feel horrible. I try not to cry in front of my children because I don't want them to see me cry but every time I am alone or with my husband I start crying. And I know its too soon to heal but I need help. I feel like if I don't have someone to talk to besides my husband I am going to have a mental break down.
I feel like people don't understand. I AM SO TIRED OF HEARING.. "God knows what he does" "Goes does everything for a reason" "Hes in a better place" or the best one was "Hes Gods child not your and he took him back"!! HE WAS MY SON AND HE BELONGS WITH ME! AND IF THERE IS A GOD I THINK ITS A SICK JOKE TO HAVE ME SO EXCITED FOR MY BABY AND TAKE HIM AWAY FROM ME AROUND THE TIME I SHOULD OF BEEN TAKING HIM HOME TO MEET HIS BROTHERS.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I am lost. I do my daily things but I feel like I am on autodrive.