I know it's coming and I can't stop it. I'm not prepared for this and I have known since Wednesday that it was inevitable. My heart is breaking and all I can keep hoping, wishing, and praying is that it does not happen tomorrow. (Tomorrow marks 8 months since my first miscarriage.) I've started passing more tissue, the blood has turned to dark red and I'm not even scared when I see it. I've lost my appetite completely, I haven't the will to do anything around the house. I snapped at my hubby today, he keeps trying to stay positive and I can't, my heart is breaking. I have to go grocery shopping in a little while and that will help keep my mind off of it I know. But what do you do when you know it's coming and there's nothing you can do to stop it from happening. No matter how much you beg and plead to God to be able to keep the life that was growing inside of you, it makes no difference. And it hurts to have to hold it all in and pretend you're okay because you don't want your four year old to see you falling apart. God this sucks and that doesn't even begin to describe this.