Almost a year since my MC.
On feb 8 it will be a year since i miscarried. I was 10 wks along. I have been really down lately because in ocober my husband and i decided we were ready to try again. I am never late with my period so i keep close track of it. In december i was supposed to get my period on the 24 and i thought that hopefully i didnt get it so that way i could take a test xmas morning and if it was positive give it to the hubby as a present. Sadly around noon i got my period. My husband noticed i was down. That same week i found out both my sisters in law were prego. My bros wife was doing a fertility treatment and luckily it worked. I was so happy for them because i knew they really wanted a baby. Two days before she found out she was pregnant my hubby and i were told that his sister was prego also. I was happy but disappointed because i knew that her parents would actually give a crap about her baby. I had a tough time when i was prego bc my inlaws didnt act like they cared. My MIL told me when i was 5-6 months prego with my daughter that it was to Early to buy anything for baby because you never know what might happen. Excuse me but i dont think my baby is going to die is what i told her and she said that she never said that.
My FIL and my hubbys youngest sister said behind my back to my hubbys cousin (who s currently living with us bc they treated her just as bad as me) that i knew i was prego when we moved in with them ad that my hubby could do better. I was so pissed when i found out b if i knew i was prego before hand i would have not moved in with them. My husband and i were also already married and no offence to teen moms but not teenagers anymore. They had my husband while his mom was a teen and they treat us like we are kids.
We dont talk to them anymore since the said we r not welcome any more to their house bc of a situation with my husbands cousin.
Is it bad of me to be jealous because i know my daughter wont get to know her grandparents from my husbands side even tho they are asses to me i dont think she should be punished. They tell everyone we keep her away when they told us that we r not welcome so why would i bring her over. It hurts to know that as i watch y SIL grow that they woudl treat her like every pregnant woman should be treated.
I was hoping that i would get pregnant this month but nope on my period again. Im sorry if its to much info i just need to get this off my chest.