So now my story: I was blessed with my baby boy, Christian, in March. He was born at 24 weeks and 5 days. I had been on hosiptal bed rest for almost two weeks prior because my water broke due to a failed cerclage that i had placed at 13 weeks.. He was in the hospital for 133 days and is wonderful and has no issues.
My issue is I feel immense guilt because I had a loss with my first pregnancy at 16 weeks because of an incompetent cervix. I was broken the day I lost Michael. I almost feel like because I am so in love with my earth son that it makes it seem as though the loss of my first son doesn't matter. It feels like I am betraying my angel baby. Anybody else struggle with this?