I feel bad about losing the weight
Today my first baby would have been 1 years old and I would have been 4 months pregnant with my second. Both were lost at 10 weeks. I gained about 30 pounds with both pregnancies (I didn't have morning sickness, I just ate like a pig. There was NEVER enough food). I did not mind the weight after the first one too much, but told myself I should loose it. After putting on an additional 30 pounds with the second, I am now 60 pounds heavier than I want/should be. A lot of that weight is visible as a belly, which makes me still feel like I am 10 weeks pregnant, and I like that feeling because I really want to be pregnant.
I started Weight Watchers, lost 15 pounds in 3 weeks and felt great, until I realized my belly was disappearing. I hate the way I look, but my belly has become my comfort. I stopped my diet and my belly is back.
I feel quilty about loosing the weight because I feel like I am getting rid of the only physical evidence I am have of being pregnant.
Have any of you felt this way?