I feel bad about losing the weight

[Lizzy128]

Today my first baby would have been 1 years old and I would have been 4 months pregnant with my second. Both were lost at 10 weeks.  I gained about 30 pounds with both pregnancies (I didn't have morning sickness, I just ate like a pig. There was NEVER enough food). I did not mind the weight after the first one too much, but told myself I should loose it. After putting on an additional 30 pounds with the second, I am now 60 pounds heavier than I want/should be.  A lot of that weight is visible as a belly, which makes me still feel like I am 10 weeks pregnant, and I like that feeling because I really want to be pregnant. 

I started Weight Watchers, lost 15 pounds in 3 weeks and felt great, until I realized my belly was disappearing.  I hate the way I look, but my belly has become my comfort. I stopped my diet and my belly is back. 

I feel quilty about loosing the weight because I feel like I am getting rid of the only physical evidence I am have of being pregnant. 

Have any of you felt this way?

[echupko]

I've never been through this but I'm so sorry. Good luck. Hugs

[RheaF]

I did at first. I sobbed when I put on my pregnancy pants and they fell off. And when I put on my skinny jeans and they fit well. It took a while, but I am now at a place where getting healthy is my goal. I know my little one would want me to, and it really helps with depression.

[Cal2006]

 I'm the opposite. I've been trying to lose weight with all of my pregnancies and I'm about 30 lbs over what I would say was normal before all of the losses. I haven't found a system that works for me that fits my budget. I'm just trying to eat healthy and fit in the exercise. I think it would be better to have a rainbow baby, then a belly that reminds you of your losses. I hope you lose the guilt, lose the weight and gain a a baby soon.

[Ladybugmama86]

 In a way yes and in a way no. I have finally decided I want a rainbow baby more then  Iwant ot hang onto something that reminds me of my losses so I am getting healthy and in shape so I am super healthy for whne I get pregnant iwth their sibling.