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Miscarriage a year ago, after a heartbeat, and it still hurts...

Posted by on Feb. 1, 2013 at 10:33 PM
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It was a year ago yesterday that I MC naturally.My hubby and I had been ttc for 2.5 years with no luck.Doctors said we were both perfectly fine according to all of the tests.We found out we were pregnant on Christmas Day 12-25-11 which was so freaking awesome!i had my first OB appt and ultrasound on 1-18-12 and there was a very healthy heartbeat.Im a nurse, so I knew at that point, there was less than a 5% of MC.I started spotting on 1-26-12 and freaked out.Went to the OB the next day and found out the baby had died 2-3 days before.I was devastated.I had a natural complete MC on 1-31-12.the gestational sac was still intact and you could actually barely see a little kidney bean sized baby in the sac.My OB didn't believe me which really kind of pissed me off bc I love my OB/ GYN.Anyways....I have yet to conceive since and am still really hurting.Its been a year.Im 27, young and according to my doc, perfectly fertile.So is my hubby.I have watched friend after friend get pregnant and everything go perfect.Im so happy for them, but it hurts a lot.As much as you know it's not your fault, you ask, what did I do that was so wrong to deserve this?Im just pissed and hurt.Hubby and I will be starting IVF this month but I almost want to back out bc I am so scared that I will go through the torture of the IVF process and MC again, if I even do conceive.I used to think I was really strong and not very sensitive, but I don't want to ever go through that again.Its almost like I have MC PTSD and I haven't even gone through anything close to what some of you ladies have.I feel so weak...even after this long.

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EAzizM
by Erica on Feb. 1, 2013 at 10:36 PM
Hugs. I miscarried the same day we saw our babys heartbeat. That made things hurt much more. So sorry for your loss.
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Herlache
by Jessie on Feb. 1, 2013 at 10:58 PM
I am sorry for your loss.. Try to stay positive maybe one round of ivf is your ticket to a sticky bean... Fx gl and lots of baby dust!
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notjstanothrmom
by Member on Feb. 1, 2013 at 11:02 PM
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I'm very sorry. I've been through 4 losses, all with heartbeats. It's no fun at all. I too had normal testing. I am now almost 18 weeks pregnant. Miracles do happen. Good luck TTC I hope you get a BFP and a very strong, healthy baby.
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mommyofnoah208
by on Feb. 1, 2013 at 11:05 PM
So sorry for your loss. Thinking of you. I lost my son at 17 weeks..so like you I was excited after seeing good ultrasounds and knew it was such a small chance of something happening.
Grieving is very difficult and takes time. We will always miss our babies, but over time the pain will be less overwhelming.
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cali_angel_girl
by Amy on Feb. 2, 2013 at 4:10 AM

((hugs)) i'm so sorry for your loss hun.

Mommy4Clara
by Bronze Member on Feb. 2, 2013 at 6:22 PM

I'm sorry you are going through so much pain.

I too lost my baby after hearing the heart beat and seeing a perfectly healthy baby.  I was 12 weeks gestation, so the baby looked perfectly developed, but the heart just stopped beating.  I had to have a D&C because 2 weeks after the baby died, my body still acted like I was pregnant and would not naturally go through with the mc.

Have you tried something less invasive that IVF, like Clomid?

Good luck! <<<hugs to you>>>

Angela4boys
by Angela on Feb. 2, 2013 at 6:39 PM
I'm so sorry for your loss :(
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melodynewsome
by on Feb. 2, 2013 at 7:36 PM
I am so sorry for your loss. I had 3 early m/c's and then my DD and 3 more m/c's as the heart barley starts :(. We are not ready to give up we want one more. I just need to save up for $ for a fresh ivf cycle.
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Jones3536
by on Feb. 2, 2013 at 10:21 PM

I just want to know did the doctors say why they feel the baby heartbeat stop? I have had this question in my head for a while because this happened to me. I mc af 15 weeks and I thought all was fine because I went to the doctor that week. Someone give me some feedback on why this happened.

daniellerjones
by on Feb. 7, 2013 at 10:47 PM



Quoting Jones3536:

I just want to know did the doctors say why they feel the baby heartbeat stop? I have had this question in my head for a while because this happened to me. I mc af 15 weeks and I thought all was fine because I went to the doctor that week. Someone give me some feedback on why this happened.


The doctors always say chromosomal and that something hadn't developed properly so it's natures way preventing severe deformities.As for post 12 wk M/C, I've heard that blood clots forming behind or in the placenta can cause this as well as a vital organ not developing just right.I don't like any of the explanations that the docs give because they are generally very vague.

Im really sorry about your loss.I think it's even harder to go through that after the end of the first trimester.Im a nurse and I used to work at an OB office.I had a young 22 year old girl who was 6 months pregnant and her baby's heart just stopped beating.The doctor couldn't find a reason why even after doing a bunch of tests that came back normal.Its tough and definitely NOT fair.I keep telling myself things happen for a reason...but it's hard to even swallow that.

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