I had a miscarriage at 8 weeks. It was my first pregnancy and I was very excited. Although I was very upset at time this happened (August 8, 2012), I find myself unable to control my emotions closer to my due date( March 30). I'm constantly crying and unable to explain to my boyfriend what's wrong, because I don't think he will understand since some time has passed. I know he was hurt but it seems as if he has moved on. And everyone around me says "you will get pregnant again" but that's not what I want. I want my baby back. It's so hard to see other people with children and to know that that could have been me. I wish the people that I cared for most understood how hard this is.