New To The Group - 2nd Miscarriage
I am new to this website and I came here hoping I could find a little comfort.
I had my 1st miscarriage in February of last year at 8 weeks and I just had my 2nd miscarriage on Monday at 8 weeks. Although I say 8 weeks, my doctor believes each baby quit developing in earlier weeks, since my miscarriages happened rather quickly and didn't hurt that bad, they both just happened to have occurred at 8 weeks.
I know so many people having babies in their lives right now
and although I'm happy for them, I can't help but feel jealous and sad
because of how bad my husband and I want it. My mom is always telling me to count my blessings and I am very thankful for so many things in my life but whenever I try to reflect on my blessings, a minute will pass by and I'll end up saying "whatever I still want a baby" - part of me feels selfish for feeling this way. My husband and I have always wanted to have a lot of kids, now we are just praying to at least get one.
But I do know that there are so many women I have read about who have had numerous miscarriages and finally received their blessing -- and these women are the one thing that have given me a lot of hope.
My husband and I are going to see a specialist on February 22, hopefully their will be a silver lining in our future because the wait is horrible.