First time doing anything like this
I have never participated in a site such as this, but today I was feeling as though change would be beneficial.
My husband and I miscarried last May. We were not planning on trying to get pregnant until after the summer, but concieved unexpectantly on my birthday in March. We were thrilled and terrified all the same time. All I thought about was Baby, Baby, Baby. Then out of know where at 12 weeks we miscarried.
That was 10 months ago. My birthday is 11 days away, the anniversary of our first pregnancy...and still we havent concieved.
Every month my emotions are like a rollercoaster. Anxious, excited, positive, nervous, stressed, disappointed. Today was end of the stessed and the beginning of the disappointed. One day late, I tested negative this morning using a home pregnancy test.
None of my friends or family members have had any trouble getting pregnant. I do however, have friends whom have miscarried and are very supportive. I also have friends whom never experienced either situation and I am finding myself not calling them as often. No one can ease your pain or your worries. Phrases like "It will happen when it is supposed to happen," "It just wasn't time yet," "At least you know you can get pregnant," and the one makes me the most irritated "Dont worry and just stop trying," are phrases I would be ok with never hearing again. Bottom line, I'm devistated and tired of being depressed and disappointed!
Now am here, trying to find comfort it the advice and stories of women whom know how I am feeling.