Hi. I'm not a mommy, but I would like to be.
I really need help and I don't know where to go.
Back in 2008, while my bff was in another city pregnant with her first child, I had experiance a 3 month long period. I couldn't get to a doctor without insurance and had no money either. ER would have charged me a lot of money, so my aunt just bought me a bunch of pads.
Before the 3 month period over the summer, I hadn't had my period for 5 months and the boyfriend I was with for 5 years was fighting with me. (Not physically.)
One day, I was sitting at my aunt's computer, while she was downstairs working and had pain like a bad period. Since I was 15 I never had a constant period and when I did it was heavy and painful. So when I had the strength to get up and go to the bathroom, hoping I was just constipated, I felt a huge woosh and a lot of blood came out. It was so thick I was terrified and forced myself to clean up and go to bed.
Some of my friends said I had a miscarriage, but because I didn't go to the doctors right away, there would be no proof. Others say it was just a bad period. But to this day, I still wonder if I had gotten pregnant.
Now days when I see my OBGYN, they tell me that my right ovary is higher up then my left and my testosterone level is at 70. They couldn't see any cysts on my ovaries, but I do have a bit of PCOS. Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. They try to force me to be on birth control ignoring the fact that I told them I am suicidal on them, weather it's the pill or patch and not willing to stick anything up me 24/7.
I know some of you are thinking, why worry it's the past? Well, I have to worry, because it runs in my family and I am afraid of disappointing my recent boyfriend. We live 30 mins away from OHSU, the best hospital on the West Coast and I've been debating on going back there and trying to trust them.
Any advice will be greatly accepted, but not if you're going to be mean about it and try to argue with me. Not in the mood.