im sitting here crying my eyes out. and its mostly my sister's fault. ever since her getting pregnant, thats all she does around me is talk about her pregnancy. how she cant wait to get it over with, how she hates being tired all the time and omg if i hear her saying i need to go to the er again for so and so im going to really loose it!! all the attention HAS to be on her. as soon as it is directed to someone else (like my other sister who is moving back to here to Wichita) then something is wrong with her or the baby. she has to be checked out. they are still bouncing from house to house with their 3 kids. and then the other day she started throwing this huge ass fit cause she has to fill out a certain amount of job apps to get cash assistance. she was worse then when i tell my almost 5 yr old no ice cream for breakfast!
its been 7 months since i gave birth. tomorrow will be 7 months since we said goodbye. there are days when i am just fine. but lately its been hard. esp. since getting a false + on a hpt. i went to the dr. to find out i have a cyst and now they are testing for ovarian cancer. i swear my life sucks! my super sweet dh is taking us all to Disney world in May. he says we need some fun and togetherness. i hope this helps. but i know its not going to be the same, cause we will be missing another person. my baby girl.