I'm just not doing well
To start off things in our life have been hard to begin with. we are low income and never seems like we get a break. as soon as we start to make more something happens were we have to spend it all on a home or car or something repair. it always seems like we are stuck where we are. I got pregnant while on bc and bfing. The first few weeks I hated the fact. But after that we got excited and started trying to figure out how we were going to make it all come together etc. but now things just took a turn for the worse. So last week my daughter got really sick. At the same time I started bleeding. My daughter became borderline hospital stay at one point. She was 22# and is now 19#. She finally started feeling better this weekend. I then had my miscarriage Sunday evening. My husband had a bad cold all weekend but took over and was taking care of all of us amazingly. Mon morning at 1230am my husband started throwing up. The baby was up every hour crying and I had to go in with her because my husband was so sick. I of course was still cramping and light headed and all that so it wasn't fun. This morning my son got in trouble and it escalated and the he went in his room and started yelling he hates me and only nano (my mom) loves him and he wishes he was with her and no me. Now this is my mom that has nothing nice to say about me or to me ever, that didn't even know about the pregnancy. Now she has been calling and texting wanting me to call her and after this thing with my son I really don't want to. About the same time my daughter started screaming and wouldn't stop no matter what we did. So I took her to the store. we went to the store to return something's and they told me I opulent because I had some sort of outstanding check or something....I don't even use checks! So I called the number they gave me and they told me I have nothing on their records and to call this other number...so I did and got voicemail. I then went to get my kids Easter stuff and got up to paying and my account was $3 short. I had cash but I didn't know how short it was and if I had been able to return those other items I would have had enough money. So I had the lady back all my bags. Got home and found I had handed her the bag of stuff I was trying to return!! I don't understand why God hates us so much! he won't give us a break or anything GOOD happen. I not for us then for our kids! They haven't don anything! I'm just so worn out and tired and giving up n God. I have no body here that cares and no one to help.
Married the Love of My Life 9/7/02
Jency Paul Douglas 6/30/05
Tesher Robert Walter 12/31/08
Zerah Janae Lyn 3/26/12
Angel babies edd 10/22/08, 11/8/11, 10/20/13