New member feeling blue!
Hi. I am new to this group and still grieving. I am 27 yrs old. My husband and I have been together for 12 yrs., married for 31/2 yrs. We suffer infertility. It's been a looooonnnggg process! But we underwent IVF in the fall of 2010 and we were blessed to find out we were pregnant. All our surrounding families were so happy! Everything was going great! We started there nursery around 5months pregnant and we found out we were having girls! We named them immediately! At 6 months pregnant I woke up and new something was very wrong! We were rushed to hospital by ambulance and was put on bed rest and had an epidural put in and also put on magneseaum to stop contractions. I was like this for 1 week until the medicine said that was enough. On April 14th 2011, Elliana Johanna was born first and then Isabella Lynn followed. They survived for a short time. They were so BEAUTIFUL!!!! We had a funeral a few days later to help with closure. I was told what happened would not happen again. It has been two years and we have no children yet. We did fund raising for infertility costs to try again. We will not be doing IVF again. Cannot afford it. My husband just had another surgery again. I suffer anxiety from what happened and that's been a battle. I'm excited and scared for what the future holds! We will never give up hope! But I'm still a different person in life and lost on how I am supposed to be feeling after 2 yrs?? Thanks for letting me share!, Loveneverfails2