I really feel like i have gone crazy. Since my miscarriage 4 months ago my husband and i fight constantly. He is never around. I'm dealing with our 8 year old daughter alone and im going crazy. My mother died nine years ago and im not close to my dad so he never knew i was pregnant or miscarried twins. All of my friends are pregnant or recently had babies so i hate them so much that i refuse to be around them. I pick fights with every one and it just serms like i'm drowning in my misery. I'm obsessed with getting pregnant again and my husband doesnt ever want to have sex because he doesn't want to try any more. If i could afford to see a therapist i would see if that would work but my insurance wont cover it. I just feel like some days i would rather die than continue feeling this way every day. And today was one of those days. Went to my friends sons birthday party and she looked extremely pregnant again (6th child) and she said she forgot to tell me she was pregnant. Her due date is a month before mine was. How does one forget to mention she's pregnant. I just want to scream. She had her tubes tied after the fifth one and still ends up pregnant and i cant even keep my babies. I just don't know what to do anymore but i want to give up.
on Apr. 28, 2013 at 11:42 PM