Plan B pregnant for 14 weeks; miscarriage , then tumor?
My name is Christy,
Over a year and a half ago I suffered a miscarriage at 14 weeks and was extremely devastated. At the time of conception my boyfriend and I were not ready (he was moving out of state, and we were both ready to expand our careers) we took Plan B over the counter almost immediately. I figured okay Plan B will for sure work we took it a few hours after conception. ...but i was surely wrong. Plan B made me extremely ill for days not thinking much of it at the time ; but apparently if you vomit when on Plan B it may not be effective. I have always had irregular periods since I was 9 (unfortunately had my period extremely young)! I knew then I had PCOS and PMDD. Two months went by after taking Plan B and still I had not had my period this was not odd. I decided to take a pregnancy test and all six boxes said I was pregnant! I couldn't believe it! I was happy and confused and didn't know how to tell the father. I wanted to wait until I saw a doctor had ultra sounds and had a plan before I could tell him. By week 13 of the pregnancy I could finally notice my baby belly and it felt so real. I was happy I felt like a mom I was planning names, planning everything for this wonderful child to enter my life. When week 14 arrived I was woken out of bed by severe cramping and nausea. I could barley move the pain was so extreme. When I made it to the bathroom there was blood everywhere. I was clotting severely and went to the hospital to find out I had a miscarriage. My plans my visions for my future of a new life was changed in a split second. I never felt so guilty and sad in my life. Sad to know the father never even got to experience the joy of expecting and losing all in once. I was afraid to tell the father and took months after the miscarriage to finally come clean. He was confused and extremely hostile towards the whole situation and basically hates me and has not talked to me since.
Two months after my miscarriage I had routine check ups with my obgyn to check on my PCOS. Apparently they had discovered one of my sists were expanding larger than normal (golf ball size). After months of hormone treatments and tests the sists grew into a tumor. I was devastated not only did life die inside me but i was indeed dying myself. talk about extreme trauma. I felt so alone and mad at my body for not doing the one thing it was intended to do from the get-co. Why did my body have to attack my rights to conceive and regulate as a women. The tumor was taken out by a laporscopic surgery and was given treatment after to stop the growth completely. I am now tumor free after seven months but still feel a lot of pain emotionally.
I want a baby now more than ever and feel like crap cause i can no longer conceive. I feel maybe if i never took plan b i would've had a child by now and if i didn't have pcos i would have had been able to conceive again. I am deadly afraid to try to concieve in the future and want to get past my lose. I am afaird to even have intercorse for fear of getting pregnant getting excited and then losing it all over agan. I feel like I am not even a women anymore.