How do I know I'm making the right choice?
I had my miscarriage last Sept. Before the mc, I was ready and wanted another baby. Then losing the baby made me reconsider everything I thought I knew.
Now here we are, just a few weeks past what would have been my due date and dh is talking about ttc again. But now, I just don't know if I'm ready to have another child. Ds is 5 1/2, getting ready to start k in the fall and I'm ready to have some freedom and get back to being ME again.
Dh and I always said that we would have at least 2 children because we both grew up being an only child and feel we missed out on something. I DO want to have another child but I just don't know if I'm ready to start all over again. I go back and forth with this decision daily..one minute I'm like you know what, this is what I want. This will make our family complete and we will all be so happy to have another child in our family. Then an hour later I feel like NO, I am not ready. Our little family is perfect right now. Ds is a great kid, we have our routine down, we can go out and do things that we couldn't when he was smaller and it's easy. Adding another child will make things hard and complicated again.
But I want a baby SO bad at the same time. As you can tell from my post...I am SERIOUSLY confused. I've been going back and forth for months and just don't know what to do. Part of me feels like maybe the mc was a sign that we shouldn't do this, that we're not ready. But I just don't know.....