We chose a name for our babies
It's been bothering me, not knowing if there was one baby or two so I went to the doctor for a follow up a appointment today and asked him about it. He told me even though a second heartbeat was never seen he was 98% sure it started off as a twin pregnancy. He was very kind and talked with me for a long time. Physically I'm back to normal but my heart is still so broken! I told my husband I wanted them to have names. So after looking and thinking we chose Alohanani and Priyasha. They look very long and complicated for such small babies but they have great meaning. Alohanani is hawaiian and means beautiful love. We wanted gender neutral names but when I found Priyasha it was just so perfect. Priyasha is an Indian name that means beautiful hope(it's a girls name). We plan on planting trees from them next spring. These babies were so loved and they brought a short stint of beautiful hope for me during a time I really needed it! I'm crushed I coudn't keep them but they were a good reminder for me of the beautiful hope and love that is around me and the beautiful hope and love that I have yet to discover and enjoy! Physically it wouldn't be a good idea for me to have anymore biological children but my husband and I have been left with a hole and are talking about maybe adopting. We'd love to give a child a home and 2 parents and 6 siblings who love them. But for now we are just trying to figure out how to heal and move on.