Quoting lovebugs_mom906:Today has been pretty good actually. I had a very long conversation with an old friend last night. She had lost a son 7 years ago, so we talked about our babies, how she coped, how she moved forward with another pregnancy. She let me cry and tell mine and my sons story, and she cried with me. Then my mom called, and she has been silent this whole time, not knowing what I needed. So she cried on the phone, telling me how sorry she was, and whatever I needed, she would be there. For the first time in over a week, I felt true peace. Being able to talk about it makes me feel better.
My biggest obstacle right now is my dreams. Every night I dream of my Jacob. Sometimes I'm searching for him, sometimes I'm reliving his labor and delivery, sometimes im being told that he has died all over again, and sometimes I'm just missing him. I wake up just broken in the morning. I know time heals, so I just have to work through it. It's only been a week - I'm giving myself time to mourn and grieve his loss. One of these days my dreams about him will be happy ones.
Quoting echupko:Extremely grumpy and busy. Not a great appt yesterday. Bp was high and protein in urine. I'm stressed out and have so much to do and I'm sure that's not helping. Go back to dr on Thursday with another 24h uriine.
I wish I could just lay around and relax :-( I'm very emotional today :-(
Yay for people who will isten to you and cry with you! That's so important. :)
I'm so sorry about your dreams. I never had any dreams associated with my miscarriage, but I have nightmares when we're TTC that make it twice as hard. I hope those end soon for you!
Bummer. :( Those last weeks are just not cool. Praying things get better for you today!
Having a long, emotional day. Time is flying and standing still at the same time. I ordered some floating lanterns yesterday for Lily's one year angelversery and having anxiety over "what if they don't work properly." My kids and step kids (and most likely Baby Gemma) will be there when we release the lantern and I'm worried I won't be able to hold it together the way I am feeling now, I don't want to scare the kids by crying. Its just one of those "world is ending" days... worried about this c-section, really really worried, like frantic worried.
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