I can accept that God has taken my babies. But I can't understand it and I don't like it. I want my babies. All of them. I want to feel them move and make me uncomfortable. I want to go through the pain of having them. I want them to drive me nuts and disobey. I want their hugs and kisses. And I know, that I have to wait. Hopefully many years, before I can ever hold them. And that sucks.
I see a newborn and I have to choke back tears. I clutch my tummy where I should have movement. I can see where it should be right now. How much bigger I should be. It hurts.
on Aug. 28, 2013 at 10:12 AM