11weeks and miscarrage :(
I was so happy when I found out I was pregnant. My husband and I had been trying for a year to get prego! I almost gave up and thought I could never have children, and the week I decided not to try anymore I was Pregnant!
I had my 1st ultrasound at my 8th week, I was 8 weeks 4 days when I had my appointment, the baby had a healthy heart beat of 150 BPM and appeared to be growing healthy. So after finally conferming we told everyone, Friends, Family and posted it all over Facebook. We were so excited, my doctor told me I could still continue to exercise the way I was before.. Jogging, swimming and lifting Light Weights. I just did the right thing and cut out all booze and the foods you cannot have while pregnant! I even had a nicknme for our baby "Peanut" I didn't want to call him or her an It so we refferd to the baby as Peanut :)
I had some stressaround week 9 with my bank.. I had my own new buisness I started up from home making jewelry and bags, and my bank convinced me to open up a buisness account and have a mercant services account to accept credit card payments, but what they didn't tell me was all the fee's associated with the Credit Card reader device and the set up activation fee. Mercant services ended up taking EVERY Penny I made all in fees and my little buisness went bankruped and I had to close it down.. but to cancel it they wanted a cancelation fee of $1000.00 Yes One-Thousand Dollars! I didn't know I was pregnan when I started my buisness, and when I did finally find out it was in my ninth week that the stupid bank started doing this all to me. I tried to get them to work with me and have them cancel everything and allow me to make payments on the $1000.00 cancelation fee but they said I had to pay it in Full! I said forget it, you not getting a dime from me... let it go to collections I'm not paying it. The Bank manager was willing to work with me on this and make a deal with them, she talked to another Merchant servises rep and got it all handeled where I was able to not pay anything but I would not get any money refunded from what they took. I was fine with that as long as I didn't have to pay the stupid $1000.00
But little did I know at that time the baby was already gone! I know I'm told not to blame anyone or feel it's my fault.... but If I really want to blam someone for my loss.... I blame Bank of America and Mercant Services! They put so much stresss on me that week no wonder my baby died!
I didn't know that Peanut was gone at this time.. and I still had 3 weeks before I had my 2nd ultrasound. I was so excited I even bought an App on my phone to track each stage in my baby's development! I made a beautiful baby blanket, and bought two onsies that could be for a boy or a girl :) I was so excatic and overjoyed to be pregnant I had so much planned out for our baby. Homeschool for a few years, teach Peanut to cook, sew, garden, play music, everything... I was adding fun kids activities to my pinterest, and my husband bought me $300 in Maternity bump start clothes! I sold all my Expensive Silver Jeans that didn't fit me anymore so I could spend it on Maternity Clothes and Baby Clothes!
So Yesterday we had the Sad appointment. I had a sad feeling while I was there... in the back of my mind I already knew something was wrong and the baby was gone.. but I didn't want to belive it. The doctor used a sound tool to try to find the heart beat, and when she couldn't find it she did a on the belly ultrasound to try to find the baby... but could see nothing.. this worried her because at 11 weeks she should have seen something... so she did a vaginal ultround and found the baby, Peanut was a little bigger than the 1st ultrsound at week 8 but there was no heart beat, and the doctore confermed Peanut died at week 9!
I was so sad... I kept asking are you sure... you can't find the heart beat.. i didn't want to belive it... I was hoping Peanut was just being difficult.. but Peanut was gone.
I have to have a D&C tomorrow morning to take Peanut out, it's so hard for me, Peanut is still inside me and I have to go around all day and work trying to not cry knowing Peanut is still there but Dead!
I don't relly Blam the Bank for my loss but I'm not happy with the stress they put me through... In fact Bank of America will not be my bank anymore.. I'll be taking all of my money out and finding a new bank to do my buisness with :)