Getting Pregnant After Miscarriage: things that may cause anxiety.
As much as we all want our Rainbows, getting pregnant after loss can cause a lot of anxiety. Do you struggle with any of these things? What would you add?
I’m Ready to Try Again, But I Do Have Concerns:
Miscarriage changes everything!
While I keep trying to tell myself that the likelihood of lightning striking twice is rare, I still can't help but be concerned that I'll lose my next pregnancy too
Comparing This Pregnancy to my Last:
I loved being pregnant. Absolutely loved it. It helped that it was picture perfect up until my loss at 17 weeks. This next go-round, I'm worried that I'll compare every little difference, taking away the special-ness of my next pregnancy.
Photo is of me, three days before my water broke and I lost my twins at 17 weeks, 1 day.
What it will feel like beyond the date of my last miscarriage:
I breezed through the first trimester with ease, so I'm feeling pretty good about getting through that period again. But I'm nervous about what it will feel like to hit 17 weeks, which is when I lost my twins, and whether I'll feel less anxious after that or if I'll worry my entire pregnancy. I'm also worried that I'll be so preoccupied with "making it through" this pregnancy, that I'll forget to enjoy it.
Wearing the Same Maternity Clothes:
It will be strange to put on the same maternity clothes that I wore during my last pregnancy. I remember how weird it felt to put on the sweater I wore to the hospital when I lost my twins for the first time again. I wonder if wearing these maternity clothes again will feel similar to that.
I can't help but feel a little as though getting pregnant again means I've forgotten about my twins. Moving on as right as I know it is is hard.
Increased Drs Appts:
Anyone who knows me, knows I am not a fan of doctors. This fertility journey and all the appointments, procedures, and medications have put me a bit out of my comfort zone, but I know it's what I must do. And because of my second-trimester pregnancy loss, this next pregnancy will be deemed high risk so I'll have appointments at my fertility center until week 11, then a 12-week appointment at my regular OB, then a 15-week appointment, a 17-week appointment, a 20-week appointment, and then an appointment once a week, every week, until the baby is born.
My biggest fear is that I'll have a hard time connecting with this pregnancy out of the fear that I might lose the baby again.