I hate hate hate actually ttc. I stayed temping and using opks this cycle. 3rd round of clomid . Both of my last rounds I got pregnant but lost both. One at 10 1/2 weeks. One was a chemical. I wanna know why I couldn't keep my baby! (I know I know I shouldn't think like this) but I keep having to start over. I get told so much how ok do strong to keep going and keep trying.... Well! I'm beginning to get overwhelmed with tracking my cycle this thoroughly! I'm praying and I mean I'm really praying I get my rainbow this cycle!!! I was feeling so hopeful about this month. Then I bought a box of opks that were useless! They were all considered invalid. Color smeared and ran everywhere. Then I bought dollar tree ones and they were all dark but not dark enough so I think I missed my surge. Even though I made sure to bd every few days like ordered by ob! And don't get me started about my bbt chart. Absolutely terrible! I don't sleep well, I'm a mouth breather and no one told me to temp vaginally to get a more accurate reading before I started temping.... Temping was new to me. I am so frustrated and losing hope that I'm closer to my rainbow! I know this prob belongs in the ttc board but you ladies are my biggest support. I don't get much support there.
on Jun. 18, 2014 at 4:24 PM