Postpartum Depression after (2) second trimester miscarriages
I don't know if this is what I have but I find myself not caring about anything. This is not fair to my other two children; but I don't. I don't want to get out of bed and when I do I just move from bed to the couch. I make supper because I have to not because I want to. I am off on maternity leave so I don't have to go to work. I have homework to do and I pick the book up and just sit it back down and walk away.
I blame myself, I should have waited longer to try after my first loss. I was selfish, I was completely content with my first lost and I got pregnant again, child shielded the pain and helped it easier to be content with my first loss, and now I am back to step one but with two babies gone and I am lost. I don't want to function.
I should be a mother of 4 boys not just 2... I am just wanting to go away.
I was told today by my MIL that I need to see a doctor because she is worried about me. My own mother isn't worried about me, so should I call my physician for possible post parturm or what?
New loss should be buried tomorrow next to his big brother, atleast they will be together and won't be alone.
Feeling lost and not sure which way to turn, this isn't fair I have done no wrong to anyone, so why me? why must I get to feel this much pain... I help everyone, I am there for everyone, why can't I just have my babies?