Frustrated this morning
Yesterday I was pretty happy. I took my kids out for the day, was able to walk around with my heavy diaper bag, push the stroller around, etc. without pain and almost not bleeding at all, all day and night.
This morning I woke up to cramping and used the bathroom and here we go again with the pain and the blood, a full week after the D&C that was supposed to make it stop.
Then I heard my 3 year old crying in her room. She said she had to use the bathroom, so I escorted her. She pooped in her panties, and got it all over the carpet, the tile, the toilet, herself, and somehow even the wall! (She was absolutely 100% potty trained and for the past 3 days for some reason she's been pooping in her panties.) So I had to clean all of that up, already upset that I'm cramping and bleeding AGAIN.
My 1 year old is a handful, which is a different story for a different time, but definitely not helping my morning.
I was such a bad mom this morning. I really was. I shamed my 3 year old. I handled that situation totally wrong.
I really need to pull it together. DH is working overtime today 12-9 and I gotta be a good mom to these kids. I'm just feeling really overwhelmed this morning and confused and frustrated.
I just want this miscarriage to be over and for some reason it just wants to drag on and on and on and on............