I detest the telephone and hate to reach out to people...please give me some advice on this
I hate phones. I didn't have one when I met my husband, now we do of course.Cell phones...I will never understand why someone needs to be reached 24/7, yes great for emegencies but do people really need to chatter 24/7 and in public or on the road.
When I hear of family going in for surgery or needing this or that I know I should call but never do. my step sister got ahold of my dd to tell her to tell me she has cancer. I just don't feel like talking to her. I just have been alone far to long to really have anything to say and also have had to many people who lead me into conversations that are negative.I feel like I have to be fake and sound just so happy and perky and concerned or whatever. I just feel so empty inside and don't feel I can offer any warmth to anyone
I have severe social Anxiety and really get nervous in public and guess it also extends to phone calls. I am only happy alone without any thing to interupt my solitude. I just don't care to be a part of the human race. I do have enough of a heart to realize I hurt people by pushing them away because I refuse to make calls or answer them.
Is there any changing me and my feelings? or am I a lost cause?