May be a bit off, b/c still pregnant, but seems the best place to start?
Well, to start off, I'm almost 23 weeks, and wondering about finding other moms/mom to be's to talk to, relate to, offer/recieve advice/support and such from.
I have a son, Damiean, who just turned 2 in November. My boyfriend (of sorts) just moved in with us, and we are expecting June 4th (anniversary of my dad's passing..) It has been a bumpy road, and continues to be. This was not a planned baby, but both sides of the family couldnt be more happy. By both sides I mean his side, and my mother, which is a story of itself.
Anyways.. lately I have been throughly feeling depressed and down, nothing really helps. Maybe its just hormones (didnt get it with my son, hoping it means it a girl!!???!?!) and maybe its just the emotions left over between me and the father. We had a history, years ago, and I can honestly say I never imagined this happeneing! Not because I didnt want it to, but due to our.. ahem.. relationship, or lack thereof..
I guess my question here is, I know some women suffer from postpartum after birth, but can it affect you before birth?? With my son, I had no worries, no hormones driving me bonkers, no stress or anything.. now I don't even recongnize the person I have become, and worry that it will affect not only my son, and my partner, but the baby when it comes, and mostly, me..
Advice, suggestions, thoughts?
I am involved in some mother groups here in town, but find them good information for the children, but not too helpful for me.. guess I am just tired of feeling so alone and empty, even when my partner tries. And he does try, I love him for that, but I just cant put it into words.. He asks, and I just cry, or brush it off. I havent slept in a while, anything decent at least. Anything, any sign, would help. Thanks in advance..