Bad thoughts

[kristen10263]

Hi everyone, I am almost 16 weeks pregnant and have been off my meds for about a month (I''m bipolar). Lately I've been under a lot of stress and have been having a lot of bad thoughts. Like, suicidal thoughts, violent images, like stabbing and cutting, etc. I am in therapy but these thoughts are occurring almost daily and it's impossible for me to see my therapist more than once every week or two. I just feel so overwhelmed. i don't feel like I am going to act one them, but it's really uncomfortable and at time distressing to feel like I have no control over my thoughts. And, I'm also worried about how this is affecting the baby now and if this is any indication of whether I am going to deal postpartum depression. Has anyone dealt with anything like this and what did you do? My therapist says I need more support but its hard to find people who I can relate to (this board has helped a lot tho!)

[dolphin2000]

I did my cutting when I was young I stopped doing it because it never made my pain deep down inside to go away and I was scaring up myself
All I can suggest is trying to think positive I know it's hard but you have to do it for your baby
I wish I could tell you it will be easy but it's not you are on a long road ahead but you can do it
Make sure you talk to your baby I know it may be weird but it will help you both also read to your baby
Hugs hugs hugs!!!

[mrsvixen]

Can you do a inpatient for a little while? U*+*hugs*

[lyrick24]

 maybe get some self help books on controling your thought processes. and continue therapy. im glad you want act on any of those thoughts. there are some books in the sticky post of this section that might be helpful to you.

[matreshka]

I have been through the same thing really bad and am getting better so it doesn't happen as much. I am also on meds so that does play a role, the seroquel keeps me from going full manic.

What has helped me is art, I started doing it when inpatient at a hospital once for suicidal planning.  It felt so good to get my feelings out in a picture form because I didn't have any words for what was going on in my head.  I still use art today as a coping skill.  I also color to relax. I love coloring mandalas with colored pencils.