New Here - Need Advice/Support - Long
Please don't be judgemental - just would like opinions: Here goes.
Having been raised to believe there would NEVER be a match for me, I married knowing he could'nt possibly care. Now, more than 3 decades later, only fear of the afterlife for suicides keeps me here. Four offspring, no love for me there at all; after all, I was the main disciplinarian while their father worked "southern swing" shift, which is all three shifts altered by one hour. So, as always, he's the good guy, I'm just the old mule. Only acknowledged when something is needed, like a favor of some sort, or a ride to work, etc. Recently been "put in my place" for getting horribly upset because of my need for companionship being ignored, as usual. It's my own fault, I just don't know how to get out of this without living on the street, as I have no income. So, any input?