Since my son was two weeks old I have been suffering from an overwhelming fear of severe medical conditions and death. It wasn't so bad at first, but around Christmas my anxiety has gotten so bad that I literally have developed TMJ from the tension in my shoulders and neck and Gerd from my severe lack a diet. I went to the emergency room in January, because I swore I was having a heart attack. It ended up being acid reflux (Gerd) and a panic attack. Every day of my life I deal with negative, sometimes awful thoughts and have all of the physical anxiety symptoms to add on to them. It's a vicious cycle. I'm so tired of feeling like this. I don't know what good it's going to do, but I called and left a message for my midwife to see if she could prescribe me something. Fingers crossed that she will over the phone, I have heard of it happening for other ladies, because I have no insurance and the prescription cost alone is probably going to cause me even more anxiety, lol. I can't do it anymore though, I really cannot go another day feeling like this. So fingers crossed that she will prescribe me something and that it will work. Thanks for letting me vent.