I haven't been doing well. The stress is killing me
So last night I got a subpoena for court. I just want to be done.
Last year I had kick my sons father out of the house for being sexual with other woman for the last time (he has done it multiple times during the two year relationship and I'm done.) Since then, my daughter has made accusations against both him and her own father. More on her bothers father than her own. Right now I'm sitting at both of them with a Protection From Abuse order, and my sons father sitting in jail. The investigation against her bio dad is still ongoing.
Anyway, the last court date against my sons father, the girl that records everything collapsed, and this court date is just a redo of that last court date. I've been working a lot lately, my manager is a bitch but I'm getting ready to move so I've been waiting to put in my two weeks (which i did yesterday and was so happy I was brave enough to do it.) But also someone is trying to sue the place that I work at so I have to write a statement for that because I was working when everything happend. The investigator with the case of my daughter against her bio dad is trying to drag out the investigation. Her bio dad isn't wanting to take a polygraph test and not only that but he's been lieing about how often he's had the girls (I have it on record that he's seen them more often than what he's claiming)
The other night I had to write out a timeline of everything that has happend the past six years because everything is getting complicated. I'm having a hard time coping. I've been drinking more lately. I was on anti depressants but its been making me so tired and I haven't had the time to go get a new prescription. The last few weeks I've only had one day off. I've broken down this week and haven't been doing my school work because I cant focus with everything else going on. I want to see an actual therapist but I want to wait till I move because I'd have to drive to the next town like I do for my daughters therapy appointments and I cant keep taking of work.
I want all of this to be done and over with already. I wish I could just have a remote to fast forward through all this.
I'm also debating about just getting a full time job when I do move at the end of the month and just start paying on my school loans so I can have more focus for my kids. I was going to work part time and go to school, but I cant handle that with everything thats been going on. I just wish I knew what to do.