I have postpartum anxiety and depression. i know I have the depression component because im tearful over stupid little things, basically everything! im very sensitive now, where before it took me a lot to cry, my grandfather passed and I was very upset but couldnt cry...I wasnt a crier. after I had LO in april, I just cry over everything. my anxiety is through the roof, Ill have VERY bad panic attacks only about 1 x a month but they are so bad I almost faint, my heart pounds, my body shakes, and it wipes me out for a few days afterwards...but on a daily basis I have anxiety. I wake up with it, its hard to make eye contact with people, I feel really anxious when I talk to people even my own 11 year old daughter. I often avoid making small talk with her because i feel like i dont want to be bothered. which stinks, because I want to do things with her and hang out with her. and I was never like this, before i got pregnant i always took them places, to the park, for road trips, etc. I also get very anxious driving for some reason. I feel like passing out, my eyes feel very nervous if that makes sense. Ive been in therepy, but the nurse prac. in the practice prescribed me zoloft 12.5mg then up to 25mg the second week. I cannot get past the fear of starting them. I read online people have had hallucinations, or tried to commit sucicide or became homicidal on them, and that scares me. I have none of those things now and dont want to make my condition worse. Im just worried that I will end up having to be hospitilized due to the meds and theres NOONE to watch my kids!